Sunday, August 21, 2011
after sooo long i had decided to come in again. when was the last time i had post a entry? i dun rmb. when was the long time i was here to share my stuff? i dun rmb. when was the last time i post abt my unhappiness? i dun rmb.. dere's soo much thing i dun rmb but dere's certain things i kept down in my heart.
when was the last time we talk? when was the last time we seen each other? when was the last time we left each other life? i left ur life but i noe i left a deep mark in ur life too.
we broke up. i broke up with her too. i walk out of everybody's life but i start a new life again. a new r/s again. to get a belonging which i long for it. i lost tat sunshine smile when u left me the first time. i lost myself when u left me for the first time. i lost myself to the sense of secure when u left me for the first time. i lost tat myself of how to learnt love someone. i lost myself of how to be true to my partner. i lost myself of how to take care of my partner. i lost myself of how to balance love in my life. u pamper me soo much. u gave me soo much i feel tat it shld tat way. u spoilt me soo much tat i feel like a princess. but now i have to learnt all over again to learnt how to be someone's girlfriend.
i tot i lost tat feeling of how to love someone till she appear. although she much older den me but she love me like how u used to love me. but of cos she doesnt pamper me and spoilt me tat much like a spoilt princess/brat. i tot my heart was dead till she appear. my heart beat for her like how my heart used to beat for u. i will get nervous and anxious. i long for this feeling from you sweetheart. but it disappear together with u when u left me for the first time. i try to make it came back when u were dere the second time but it disappear bcos it was being hurt so much and badly.
i broke up wif her bcos i knew all along she was a life jacket for me when i needed someone to be dere for me. someone to walk thru my darkest and lowest point of life. i tried to give my love to her but in the end im not able to. till i met this new girl.
u might have find someone new in ur life. u might have find a new love. but always rmb, u stay in at the deepest of my heart and i've already lock it up. tat place is always for you. i've make u learnt and grown and i hope u do still keep it up and always be good to listen.
sweetheart, takecare and *love
when was the last time we talk? when was the last time we seen each other? when was the last time we left each other life? i left ur life but i noe i left a deep mark in ur life too.
we broke up. i broke up with her too. i walk out of everybody's life but i start a new life again. a new r/s again. to get a belonging which i long for it. i lost tat sunshine smile when u left me the first time. i lost myself when u left me for the first time. i lost myself to the sense of secure when u left me for the first time. i lost tat myself of how to learnt love someone. i lost myself of how to be true to my partner. i lost myself of how to take care of my partner. i lost myself of how to balance love in my life. u pamper me soo much. u gave me soo much i feel tat it shld tat way. u spoilt me soo much tat i feel like a princess. but now i have to learnt all over again to learnt how to be someone's girlfriend.
i tot i lost tat feeling of how to love someone till she appear. although she much older den me but she love me like how u used to love me. but of cos she doesnt pamper me and spoilt me tat much like a spoilt princess/brat. i tot my heart was dead till she appear. my heart beat for her like how my heart used to beat for u. i will get nervous and anxious. i long for this feeling from you sweetheart. but it disappear together with u when u left me for the first time. i try to make it came back when u were dere the second time but it disappear bcos it was being hurt so much and badly.
i broke up wif her bcos i knew all along she was a life jacket for me when i needed someone to be dere for me. someone to walk thru my darkest and lowest point of life. i tried to give my love to her but in the end im not able to. till i met this new girl.
u might have find someone new in ur life. u might have find a new love. but always rmb, u stay in at the deepest of my heart and i've already lock it up. tat place is always for you. i've make u learnt and grown and i hope u do still keep it up and always be good to listen.
sweetheart, takecare and *love
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