Wednesday, May 30, 2012
i text u by ur old number. someone responded but it was not u. it was someone else. someone had already used the number that was ours number. the moment when i knew it wasnt u on the other line, i tear.. months passed, memories and things stay put. never move. never change. but mayb you had change. each time when i'm here to write a post, i knew im just talking to myself. cos i know you will never once here to read anymore. the day i push you away, nobody knows why. nobody know the answer except myself. everybody blames me. i know.. i dun expect them to know the reason as along as i know myself will do..
i push you away hoping that you will learn to grow. grow up to be like a man. to be able to take care of urself so that i will not worry. everythin i do is always for your own good. mayb this time round im selfish to have hurt in this way, but it was only the way for our love and our bond to breed in a brand new one again. but.... i could be wrong also in doing that.. by doing that, it could mean that you will be away from my side forever..... which might really happen..
sweetheart, all along you were my love of life. i knew that. but sometime certain things have to go thru lots of obstacles before it will be a lovely ending. u touched my heart sooo deeply that nobody had ever. we went thru sooo much sooo much.. sooo many beautiful memories and smiles.. soo many silly things we did together. all the memories bring smiles on to my face.. although u are always pissing me off, but u always have ur way to coax me and put smile onto my face again. like pulling ur monkey ears and shaking ur butt.. (:
sweetheart, i misses you soo badly.. soo badly..
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