Saturday, July 18, 2015
♥ after sooo long
after sooo long decided to blog again. u might be checking up or you might not be checking up on the blog anymore.
i was surprised and happy to have receive call and text from you. surprised bcos after soo long i hear from you and knowing you are fine and alright. happy bcos i hear your voice after soo long. the day when you call me made me heart skip a beat. i was nervous bcos i dono what to say and how to start the conversation.
honestly, we always missed out each other even after soo many years. the night when i told you, you were late. i cried. bcos i was hoping you could have said and confess earlier and not when i had decided to leave the spot waiting dearly for you.
after months, we still missed out each other bcos i was attached with someone. meeting you and falling in love was never planned in my life. you had loved me well and pampered me like a princess for the years we had spend together loving each other.
i do see and sense the determination from you getting back together and to love me again. but... things changed. times changed. i dun wanna hurt either you or him. i cannot say he is 100% good but he is 90% good. other den you, he is another one who can take my nasty temper full of nonsence and shit from me.
although he dun spoilt me like a princess like how you spoilt me, but he do makes me grown. he gave me positive energy and made me smile although he do make me pek cek and dishearted at times.
ppl will say it will change after a period and it will no longer be the same. we have no honeymoon period and we shared everything which how u and me always do too. i trust and believe he will continue to be the same in treating him and will not changed.
im sorry to have disappoint you sweetheart. u do still live in my heart in a place that i had kept for you. please stay and live well bcos u will always be rmb by me.
im sorry my xiao chao ren.
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